Thursday, September 20, 2012

Prayer


This fervent plea
This desperate hope
I send out to you
In hopes you will answer
I do not expect
Only seek
I do not demand
Only imagine
This moment of quiet chaos
My hammering heart inside
Holding myself rigid, taut
Against the storm raging in me
All I ask is for relief
A lifting of the burden
To where I can still bear it
Not be crushed under its weight

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Busy weekend


We sway underneath landscapes of plastic clouds
While ginger angels play their harps and croon so sweetly
We wander underneath crop circles
As the smell of gunpowder still lingers
We venture into the marble unknown
Sipping on chardonnay, waiting for ghosts to appear
We wade through the thick, dark fog
Searching for horrors untold, sharing secret smiles
We explore the neon exotic neighborhoods
Drinking salty broth, eating tender noodles
We maneuver the strange and unusual crowd
Avoiding encounters, evading confrontations
We lay on the sweet green grass in the dappled sunlight
Feasting, recording, laughing, trying not to cheat
We explore a genius’ progress through lines
Comparing his beginnings to his end
We consume this city so fully
We peek around every corner
We gobble up all its secrets
And know it has so many more to tell

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Sweet surrender

As the sun sliding over the horizon
Gold creeping along the edges
I feel this steady building
A heavy expansion from within
Gently pushing against my ribcage
Delicately tapping at the tip of my spine
Echoing through the caverns of my mind
Caressing my skin from within
Spreading this glinting sensation
As surely as the rays pierce the sky
Warming my nerves to tingle
Setting my flesh to blushing heat
My eyes flutter against the sound
My muscles clench in languorous desire
Chills crisscross along and through me
And I don’t even try to fight this
My fingers itch to express
My knuckles ache with emotion
My shoulders gyrate to ease the tension
My neck drops in surrender
I know better than to focus
I give in to this sensation
The eternal hope of dawn
The constant relief of music

Motivation


Every pound I burn
Is one I no longer have to bear
A small weight falling from my shoulders
Slowly but surely, dripping away
Every inch, every centimeter I lose
I feel the slightest difference
A new dimension to discover
A space that wasn’t there before
I chronicle my constant progress
I celebrate my little victories
I know the road ahead is long
And I gladly take each step one by one

Friday, August 3, 2012

Image

I am a reflection, your perception
Nothing more than angles and opinions
I am all you believe me to be
Nothing more, nothing less
A constantly changing mirage
An evolution of memories and actions
Trends and quotes and tendencies
All lined up to create who you think I am
As well as you think you know me
As much as you see of my secret heart
Know that someone else has seen me, as well
And I was a completely different person in their eyes

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Gift

I promised you the moon
So that you could pull me to you like the tide
 I promised you the stars
 So that I could see them shine in your eyes
 I clutch you in my arms
 Like every childhood treasure I ever had
 I press my lips to yours
 To prove they are perfectly matched
 I wear your ring on my finger
 A small and sacred shackle to your heart
 I give all that I am to you
 Such a small gift to show my love for you

Saturday, July 7, 2012

New World

I hear the music and a cathedral is erected
The tears trail and I want all to be darkness
Just so I can hear it more clearly
Give in to every vocal, every crescendo, ever beat
I have nothing but gratitude for this visceral reaction
This moment of complete and total vulnerability
Where I am lost and abandoned and surrendered
My skin aches and my muscles are slack and I am at complete peace

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Sweetheart

My sweetheart, with your sweet heart
 Filled with chocolate kisses and sugared words 
Stuffed to the brim with good intentions and devotion
 Overflowing with all the hours we’ve shared
 Bursting at the seams with romantic gestures and poems
 Chock full of love and time and light
 Your sweet heart is a prize, a mystery box of unknown wonders
 Your sweet heart is a juicy confection for me to gobble up
 Your sweet heart is cradled inside my own, safe and sound
 Your sweet heart is all I could ever want for in this world

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Perspective

Your heart is torn
And your mind is troubled
An uneven balance is struck
And all information is weighed
After endless hours
You’re still not sure of what is right
After sleepless nights
You’ve still yet to make a choice
The past battles the present
The then fights the now
Leaving one makes you hate the other
Upon arrival, you wish you had never left
Guilt meets longing meets hope
And all you can do is sigh
You look for that deciding factor
That moment that will make it all clear
Then you realize the simple truth of it
A shift in perception changes everything
The world turns upside down, right side up
And it’s all so obvious
You have two options
Two inspirations
Two loves
Two lives
You have access to either
Neither is lost forever
Both are filled with love and beauty
Both always wait for you
How is that anything to mourn?

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Anticipation

And so it begins, the inevitable yearning
My heart swells within me as if to burst through the flesh
Break free, fling itself across the miles and through the hours
Reconcile with its one true home and nestle there for always
Cradled in delicate spanish moss, lacy and mysterious
Measured by cobblestone streets, structured and guiding
Haunted with love by stone angels, washed with tears and rain
Nurtured by strangers and lovers alike, embraced with equal regard
This devotion, tempered to save my sanity
A time bomb, set to explode when allowed
The emotions take over and thoughts give way
Leaving me with tear-blurred vision and aching skin

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Strange Sentimentality

I almost desire to return to that moment of confused silence
The absence of sound, the absence of color
Shocked and left wondering what to do
False peace among the chaos
Too lost to start anew, still unable to reestablish bearings
All that’s left is to gaze at the destruction
Take mental and emotional inventory of all that is wrong
Hyperfocus on the most minute details over and over again
Lines and space and darkness
Severed connections and hollow audio
Familiars made strange and alien
Stillness, fragile and raw
I wish to immerse myself in it yet again
So that I can build it up once more
Experience and endure such loss and pain
So that I can enjoy such pleasure all the more

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Resolution

Its so easy to take that step back
Away from the situation, the feelings
If you have another place to rest
If you’re all on your own
You take your space so far
To be left lost and cold
You must become your own anchor
A rock, an island, a fortress
Alone, withheld, and secure
Become yet again your own master
Forge your armor anew
Shroud your heart, steel your mind
Remember the lessons you learned
Forgive the mistakes you made
Focus on the skills you gained
Fix your sight on what is to be
Shed the weight of regrets
Move ever onward, toward the horizon

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Stormy Night

The anguish crests, the tears break
As waves thrown upon a shore
The loneliness sweeps along
As the tide drawn to the moon
This helpless agony, as steady as the sea
Anger, then sullen silence, then a storm of emotion
Squalling in rage, sobbing in grief
Searching for a port, a light to guide a path
No safe harbor, no solid land
All is tossing and turning
All is darkness and clouded night
All is heaving, drowning and choking

Monday, January 30, 2012

I know the time passes for so long
And I know the energy spent crying
Could be otherwise spent dialing your number
But sometimes my fingers ache at the thought
The best of heroes can turn to the worst of villains
For love and hate are two sides of the same coin
But what’s the point of taking a chance and placing a bet
When the price itself is in constant question
Maybe if we were to be known to each other
We could find common ground in conversation
The sweetness of blood oranges
The snobbery of unknown bands
Or it might all be silence and the echo of years
You, thinking you know who I am
Me, mourning that I have no clue who you are
Siblings turned strangers, half our lives apart
I don’t ask for you to be my father
I don’t expect you to see me as a friend
I just wish for you to acknowledge me as your sister
See me as who I am, not who you believe I was